Have I done wrong, again?

Waiting...
Forgive me for not taking action first.
I am not used to this,
Not used to make the first move.

What have I done,
To make you the way you are now?
Forgive me but I really do not know.
Please tell me,
For I fail to notice the reason of all this.

I really do not know what to do.
I feel so helpless.
Why do you have such a big impact in my life?
Why because of you, I have the urge to run into a heavy downpour of rain?
To let the rain fall on me,
To wake me to my senses...
I am weak,
Because of you...

Waiting...
For you...