Gong Xi Fa Chai

Is it just me, or is the mood of Chinese New Year not as it is before?

I do not know why. Although new year is just around the corner, I do not have the mood of celebrating at all. Where is my longing to get together and eat as much as I can? Where is the joy of wearing new clothes and wishing other people good luck? Where is the excitement in waiting to receive 'ang pow'? Where is the happiness in listening to joyful new year songs? Where has the mood gone to?

Maybe I am losing these excitement bit by bit as I grow older. It is just the same year after year. Nothing special. Nothing to look forward to. Just maybe... Or maybe I am afraid to meet weird relatives that I have never met but insisted that I know them and expect me to call them by name without giving me half a clue. Just maybe...

Chinese New Year used to be a celebrating festival, a happy one. What is happening now?

Although I am feeling this way, I do not want to spoil others' new year. So I will try to change my mood and at least pretend that I am looking forward to it and will enjoy it with all my heart.

I wish happiness and joy to all. Enjoy a happy Chinese New Year!

Gong Xi Fa Chai...